french is an utterly beautiful language. let me show you why.

In French, you don’t really say “I miss you.” You say “tu me manques,” which is closer to “you are missing from me.” I love that. “You are missing from me.” You are a part of me, you are essential to my being. You are like a limb, or an organ, or blood. I cannot function without you.

fuck you!

poetry, stories and many more ways to publish your thoughts, your emotions and to put that down what you allready experienced. when i read the poetry blog of my best friend, i'm just jealous of her, because she write so much. it's like shes writing a speech to the president. so recondite, so meaningfull. it just reaches the bottom of my heart.

Another example;

i read love stories/fan fictions of other people and i'm just thinking; how do they get their creativity? their inspiration? their impules. it's just a mystery for me and yes, i'm jealous. you could be proud of that but inside me i feel that. that feeling of being a brick. just as dumb as brick. yep. that describes me. everyone around you is better than you in anything. did you allready had that feeling? i have it anywhere and it just hurts. more than that. it literally eats my organs and they start to burn inside, like i swallowed poison or something like that. i can't explain it. excusez-moi, because of my dumbness.

FUCK YOU!

JUST FUCK YOU ALL!

these 2 weeks, which i probably wouldn't survive.

it's friday. i know. im totally happy about that, because this week was not really great in my opinion. it was like every week. i have to pretend someone who i'm not, but i still was myself(You don't have to understand my logic). the thoughts; "should i comment it or not?" are allways in my head. because i mostly say nothing, everybody is shocked when i say something. my parents are also shocked. i'm allways the quitness in the family, but when i write, i feel so free. like shaking all my worries away. it's a good feeling, but i cant do it everyday. i still have to study and have to do presentations. i just pray to god that i'll survive these last 2 weeks, before the vacation starts. and i write to my online friends to kill the time.

a piece of hope van halen's life.

2 days ago, i done the same. i wrote a page full with my thoughts, but i still have the feeling that i didn't write enough. i have so much to say, but the humanity lives so far away. i say this, because it feels like i live in distance from the whole society, but i'm honest;

i hate the society and the humanity.

So it's my fault. i build bridges between my world and the reality, just because i don't like the world, but i guess i have to buid bridges between the reality and my dreams. it's a way to understand people better, but why should i stay in contact with ironic idiot's who don't accept the fact that i'm diffrent?

why should i trust people who gossip behind my back?

why should i?

why?

i'm just too afraid. too afraid to loose everything. my glory(if i own it, i'm not really sure with it), my hope for peace and my moment where somebody is comming to me and says; "hey! i want to share my world with you." i shouldn't wait for this, because i know that this would never happend. the humans are just too busy to care for others and that hurts. because in the past, i was a fucking idiot and thought; "If i'm nice to them, they'll be nice to me" 

*laughs* 

well, i found out that this is the most popular motherfucking lie i've ever heared!

(...)

today is the 10th.June.2012

Yes guys, today is the 10th and i really missed you guys, allthough i wasn't offline for a long time.

Well what else could i say? Uhmmm... oh yeah!

Well yesterday was a really productive day for me, because i'm seriously done with my homework(i had to copy 17 pages. well, in my opinion it doesn't make sense but my german teacher is kinda crazy), i made a new blog 2 days ago, so don't hate my page, please(?)

i can explain my blog a bit to you, if you want to.

Well;

My new tumblr is a blog where i add pictures of my favourite band and sometimes i share more personal pictures. Well, it's just like the other blogs, but it would be nice if you could leave a comment/an idea here on the comments below.

Well, now i want to show you something what i also did yesterday. Because my homework annoyed me, i sometimes laid it away, grabbed my small A5 college block and wrote what i thought and that's the result;

of course i'll post them all, but not today. maybe another one.

Oooh and before i forget it! My awesome friends brought me to an idea, but i'm not really done with it. you'll see it in tumblr, because on blogspot i would like to write quotes and share my art with you.

I guess i'm done now.

xoxo.

ps; what do you think about the new blogspot design?

06(June)/7th